Despite Sheng Youting never reciprocating her feelings and Yu Lan constantly feeling inferior in their relationship, she remained in love with him for 11 years. However, after making the difficult decision to end things and remove him from her life, she found the separation to be not only agonizing, but also left her with a sense of being adrift and unfinished. Yu Lan had grown so accustomed to loving Sheng Youting that his absence left her struggling to determine her own identity.